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[15 Oct 2003|01:57am] |
So life is pretty fucken sweet. . .Zoe is amazing
Friends are amazing...
I'm back to my old ways it seems...
Boys come and go. . .
but I don't really like em around too often anymore. . .
everyone i've hung out with in the past month
has eventually ended up bugging the crap outta me within two hang outs...
been going out wayy too much since I turned 21...
time to take a break....
no more drunk-dialing...is my new years resolution...
minus the fact that its not even new years...
no more hanging out when im drunk
and waking up being pissed off at myself
(yeah okay STacy give me indian burns)
love <3
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[07 Oct 2003|04:23pm] |
All I know is actions speak a lot louder than words....
so shut your mouth....n show me what you say is true
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[30 Sep 2003|10:46am] |
Things have been good...
thanks to everyone who made my birthday so wonderful<3....
Don't really remember Sunday night...
a little too intoxicated...
so please excuse my behavior...
I couldn't even drink on my REAL 21st bday ...
too hung over ...oh well
Sometimes when you think you're going threw the worst thing
it turns out to be the best thing that ever happened to you...
so much happier lately ...
no more stress or tears<3....thank you
weird how feelings can fade and disappear so fast....
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[27 Sep 2003|04:12pm] |
So glad you're gone
I can finally breathe again.........
all on my own<3
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| boys boys all type of boys |
[23 Sep 2003|11:21am] |
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no more weight on my chest...no more burden on my back...no more pyscho at my door...no more of my heart on the fucken floor........my bdays Monday...21...get smashed...see you guys there<3
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| ok |
[04 Sep 2003|01:32am] |
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so basically tonight was amazing.......two amazing things happened ..........but im too pissed off at myself to be excited......that doesnt even make...........but its the truth.......
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| Fuck It |
[03 Sep 2003|10:48am] |
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I'm deleting most of my old entries cause they're stupid.....I just woke up its like ten and my tummy hurts I feel like throwing up...Just got home from The Oc last night after a month and a half and I guess I'm gonna move down there this next week and rent a room ....I might wait till the first though because my bday is this month and I want money to go somewhere fun.......Zoe is getten so big....she giggles all the time now so cute...I'm sick of never hanging out with my girlfriends I miss em...no more being a shitty flake.....sorry guys <3........
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| Home Sweet Home |
[07 Aug 2003|02:17am] |
I finally came home after a long time in OC...
My Grammy is sick so I came home to see her and hang out with her some...
some shit is buggen me right now....
its old drama I shouldn't even have to be dealing with...
I'm smarter than this...I'm dissapointed in myself...
I've had some good times lately though....
I think I've maybe been drinking a little bit too much though...
I need to calm down...
Me and Paige went to Mexico last Wednesday....
all by ourselves..
it was funny...
we drank and danced it up....goodtimes for sure....
then on the way home I drove her car and she shifted hehe......
Went to Beat it a few times....the first time was fun cause I saw some friends...
the second time was funny but I was a lil too intoxicated....
oh well who can honestly go to Beat It sober...worst place...
Iam sleep...drank wine tonight n passed out and woke back up for some fucked up reason....
I think its time to go back to bed...I have a lot on my mind though....
goodnight<3
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| tonight blew |
[23 Jul 2003|12:33am] |
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so i didn't do shit tonight...
cuz i didnt have my car....
and i live in BFE so no one was excited about making the drive out here to pick me up....
i sat in my pajamas all day cause its too hot to even go outside...
i took a shower at eleven pm...haha
then i just made a lil trip to Del...
then got a phone call fulla drama....
its chill...
i ate one soft taco and im gonna barf...
i hate del now....
i need my car back...
cause im bored and when im bored i eat...
imma get fat haha ...
i need to start looken for a job but i dont wannnnnna...
kay this is boring...cig break<3
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| I'm sick of not having my fucking car. . . |
[22 Jul 2003|03:35pm] |
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I wanna do ten things tonight and I can't even fucken leave my houssssssse..........
I'm gonna scream. . .
Iam fucking pissed. . .
I never knew what a hassle having no car is. . .
fucken buggen me. . .
I think I'm gonna go back to bed for the rest of the night. . .
grrrrrrr
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| you make me fucking sick to my stomach |
[22 Jul 2003|03:15am] |
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remember when i said i'll always care about you and love you.....
i fucking lied.......
you are trying to turn me back into something im not ....
im not who you think iam anymore......
so give up already......
things are so calm when you're not around....
so stay far fucking away from me......
im not used to this kind of rough water....
it doesn't fit into my day anymore.....
Life has been so much better....
but you know that...
and that is why you keep trying to hang on.....
let go....
cause i have......
I like being able to wake up with a smile on my face....
I like being able to be carefree......
I like that you're not a part of my conversations any longer....
I like that I don't expect the phone to ring with you on the other end...
and I want it to stay this way.....forever.....
goodnight......<3
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[21 Jul 2003|09:56pm] |
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[21 Jul 2003|02:46pm] |
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Last car ride: over the good ole ortegas last night
Last kiss: yesterday
Last good cry: not for awhile....maybe a month?
Last library book checked out: uhhhhh
Last movie seen: Oldskool the other night...wasn't really paying attention though
Last book read: The Baby Whisperer
Last cuss word uttered: FUCK about seventeen times today
Last beverage drank: sprite
Last food consumed: an apple for breakfast
Last crush: i don't think i've had one of those in awhile
Last phone call: Jess<3
Last TV show watched: Scooby Doo with Zoe this morning
Last time showered: yesterday I'm still in jamas
Last shoes worn: black ones i wear everyday haha with knots
Last CD played: LiL Kim
Last item bought: Del last night
Last downloaded: Le Tigre
Last annoyance: My Babys Dad
Last disappointment: no one cool has called me yet today cept jess<3
Last soda drank: Sprite
Last thing written: an IM to Hillary
Last key used: Moms car
Last words spoken: Hey Zoe
Last sleep: This morning till about noon.....im not lazy at all
Last IM: Jessica <3
Last ice cream eaten: umm golden spoon with kara last night...dooont get rootbeer it tastes like tums
Last time amused: when jessica called me a few ago..we always amuse each other....at least we think we're funny even if no one else does
Last time wanting to die: last night was pretty gay
Last time in love: maybe right now but im not sure
Last time hugged: yesterday
Last time resentful: last night on my drive home
Last chair sat in: this chair at our computer desk right now
Last lipstick used: I don't wear lipstick makes me look like a drag queen
Last underwear worn: umm yesterday i think haha ....
Last bra worn: Blaccccck
Last time dancing: yesterday haha im always dancing
Last poster looked at: uhhhh
Last web page visited: Friendster of course <3
1 MINUTE AGO: Kissed zoe
1 HOUR AGO: ate lunch w/ my mom
1 DAY AGO: sitting at a stupid house
1 WEEK AGO: hangen with jess having goodtimes
1 YEAR AGO: was not pregnant yet ...being a drunk
I HURT: nah...i dont hurt no more
I LOVE: my fam n friends n Zoe <3
I HATE: your bullshit
I FEAR: being connected to you for the rest of my life
I HOPE: my mom finds us a new house soon
I FEEL: frustrated with life...moody...bored
I HIDE: my feelings
I DRIVE: nothing my cars in the fucken shop
I MISS: being with my friends everyday
I LEARNED: guys bug me ....im a lesbo
I NEED: to color my hair....
I THINK: you love me
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| goooood morning |
[21 Jul 2003|02:07pm] |
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So bored today. . .my car is still at the Ford Dealer getting fixed so Iam stuck at my house...its two pm and I'm still in pajamas.....shorts with dogs on them to be exact....I have been extra moody lately...I was blaming it on PMS but it doesn't last THIS long haha. . .I need to start going to bed earlier...and I need to go try and find a job soon... My mom is looking for houses to buy in the San Clemente area...I am pretty stoked minus the fact that Iam kinda over living that close to certain people...and I don't wanna get wrapped up in OC bullshit...but it is better than Hemet so thats a plus...I will be closer to a lot of my friends...I'm not sure if thats a good or bad thing though hehe....I have been staying outta trouble down here in the 909....Iam over guys...I think I'm turning into a lezbo.....guys don't even sound good to me anymore haha........I don't think I'll be dating anyone again for a looooong time...girls hit me up.....hehe juuuuuust kidding........and im out <3
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| tonight blew |
[21 Jul 2003|01:37am] |
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Tonight bugged. . .I could have done something fun but instead I wasted it being a fucken idiot. . .Iam over hanging out with some of the people I have been around lately. . .they aren't even worth my time really. . .sounds shitty but its very true. . .Claudia made me this journal on a good night. . . cause I had some bitching to do for sure. . .Last night was fun. . .me n Jess got a lil too waaaaaaasted on wine though....whats new haha. . . no more OC for me for a while I need a little break. . .if you want to see me. . you can travel down here xoxo...bed time gotta be up bright and early
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[21 Jul 2003|12:46am] |
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this is claudia i made britt a journal.. woot
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